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MxHC Music Promotions: Vol. 6

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It’s all too much. I’ve been so strong. I’ve bared this weight for too fucking long. I need to get out, I need to escape. It’s like I’m trapped in my own head, lost in my mind deeper and deeper. I want to escape. Get me out. I’m losing grip on myself, I feel I’m fading away. Trapped in my past, I’m fucking losing myself. All I want is to forget everything. I want to get out, I want to separate myself from all of the things I have done, but I cannot sleep, I try to feel - I can’t feel anything. No faith can help, no higher power can fix the pressure caving in my chest. The bottom of the bottle gives me some relief, have another drink so I can feel alive. Waking up with the taste of alcohol and regret lingering behind. I don’t remember how I got here, all I know is I need more. I hate that I love it. I hate that I need it. My wallet is empty and so am I. I’ll do anything to feel alive. My hands are shaking, cold sweat, desperation, and he’s walking alone on these empty streets. I hate that I love it. I hate that I need it.
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I embark all alone, yet I feel your presence Forget the years of the past Right now is my only essence Gaze upon the arid skies, but now I'm stuck to realise You are half a world away And there is too much I could say In this world, we are lost but free Alone in solitude This journey lasts forever We won't ease to ashes Your pain is minuscule Thousands suffering everyday They don't have the basic needs While you complain and beg for more She begs for life, whilst you crave for death Romanticising sorrow is society's weakness What I see and what I hear You cannot feel, you cannot touch Gaze upon oceanic skies, but now I'm stuck to realise You are half a world away And there is too much I could say In this world, we are lost but free Alone in solitude This journey lasts forever we won't ease to ashes We are lost but free In the darkest of hours Perceived months turned into years The beauty of fate is unpredictable We won't ease to ashes Born with natural guidance of the inner voice I am lost but free Seeing is to believing Words from your mouth (Are just a worthless phase)
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I have always been there But never quite in sight In the back of your mind Devouring your walls like a fucking parasite Fear me, do you hear me? Fear me, do you hear me? I am death in the form of a man A whisper in the shadow of a shortened life span Fed through the lung I step away from the world I know. God damn. Fixed solid You won't break me I will set my mind to stone And block out all uncertainty We are weapons Our mind's contain the venom Our mouths the barrel, our tongues the trigger Out heart the facility of hate. Our lungs fuel and conduct our actions We breathe dirt and cloud our judgements We act on lies dealt by demon deep in cloak Daggers, cut our throats. Maniacal, diabolical, scrutiny. Eyes as black as the ash of the dying sun. I feel eternal hatred resonate through me I am but a man, i can feel it pollute the cerebral cortex Engage.
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What is this vision Am I seeing The fucking cost of living The consequences of my choices My own reality, laid bare before me The embodiment, of all that is wrong with me All that is wrong with me The features are just the same He's just dead behind the eyes The visible cost, of my fucking failure to control myself I've just I've just internalised My guilt and the pain I've felt From caring too much My worst enemy My price of living The cost of failure Lives inside my head with me I bear the weight of my sins I will forever stand alone in this"
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Who the fuck have you become I don't know who you are anymore Selfish, a liar, a fake A person I hate who is bound to his fate What has happened to my son? Please tell me, where has he gone? With the light taken straight from his eyes This path you have chosen is one I despise You're not the son that I've raised you to be You're pathetic and weak The world isn't yours It owes you nothing for what you've endured Can't you see? You're not the son she wants you to be You're pathetic and weak Why can't you see Why the fuck can't you see? You're breaking.. your mothers heart Breaking her heart You're Breaking her heart Can't you see you are breaking her fucking heart If you saw the world through my eyes, you'd feel the constant pain Ignorance is bliss so keep assuming I have changed Open your fucking eyes I am proud of who I am Why can't you understand? I hate who you have become You are not my son What makes you think I'd believe in you Everything you do is far from the truth But I am wrong I often wonder from the edge of my bed To the depths of my head Would I rather be dead Making friends with cement Wondering where it went wrong Fuck everything you said Can't you see I am breaking your heart for being alone I'm breaking your heart for being my own I'm breaking your heart for being strong I'm breaking your heart, for being a son Bastard Please tell me where have you gone With the light taken straight from his eyes This path you have chosen is one I despise It's cliche to say That I hope and pray that there will be a day You'll come back and say, you are proud of the son I became
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I'm forever free to be alone Left wondering, between tall trees Loving ghosts, in the back of clubs Behind the light, behind the lights I warm to way You will feel in the morning When i'm awake Defeating the world Loving ghosts Loving ghosts When i'm awake I'll be defeating your world We are the promise of tomorrow We lack todays grace Loving ghosts
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From the start, Things can be different Though we've been down this Road before. Nothing is set in stone Feel free to stray away Don't let your fragile bones Keep you down Now I know I don't need you now. You will see the reasons this will, All seem so familiar Don't let them get the best of you Their words sharpened (Ryan Kirby) Don't take in what they say Or you will never be more than the accusations They made Life is too short to dwell on the words that meant Nothing Throw down in to the dirt Pick yourself up Show them who they really are. You will see the reasons this will, All seem so familiar Don't let them get the best of you Their words Sharpened, Just to cut you down And tear your ambitions apart. They left me feeling like nothing mislead and broken down I refuse to let you overcome. Pry their eyes wide Show them who you really are Never able to define. (x2)
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Don't take me lightly because i am a force to be reckoned with ill do what ever it takes trade my blood for your penance. I stand before you an empty shell of a man once the most compassionate of fiends now the most vile offender been taken advantage of Excessively raped by the ones that i love I lay alone contemplating the trustees of my wealth once friends now forgotten The best years of my life are gone and nothing to show for it . Absolutely nothing to show for it in this moment of melancholy I choose to indulge I choose to rise above and seek the opiate that will erase my pain and make my suffering go away a vicious cycle gradually catching up to me destroying any chance i have at a normal existence You took me lightly now I am the force that you reckoned with I did whatever it took traded my blood for your penance. Although that part I can bare spend the rest of my life in the gutter I don't care watching my peers pass me by ever progressing without me by there side it eats me up inside Then there's me too worn out from the instant gratification that has been the bane of my existence left in ruins by the shadows I called brothers that's when you know that that's when life becomes something you don't wanna be a part of because you will never escape human nature For all the years i sacrificed and made myself your bitch Gave you all my heart and soul pledged until my fucking grave Now I plea to a false idol to grant to me the strength and malice of a viper stalking enemies
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I am the craftsman, Of this fragile constellation, Unambiguous arrangement of light, There is no escape, there is no exit, I am bound within the divide. My hands tied, guilt covers my eyes. I've become the epitome of all that I despise. These frail hands enclose broken bottles and dismay, A manifest of pages so torn and frayed, Nail me to the cross I built, Tuck me into the bed I made. Because I've become the contortion, Of a violent nature, thesis undefined, I am the architect, Of my incongruent design. And you could be the bird in my poems, The one who sings so sweetly to me, To drown out the turbulence, And rediscover the sanity of sleep. Awake, I wait, The shepherd of my thoughts, I gather the pieces, To rebuild the fathom of who I am. I must learn to become the subsequent, To disperse the narrative of my demons. And you can be the bird in my poems, The one who sings so sweetly to me. I've drowned out the turbulence, I've found my place of serenity. I have befriended the entity, Grown comfortable within the shallow waters, A knee-high drought to sink the vessel, To whom I'm no pariah. This ark contains no walk of life, And these waters do not part for the purposes of man, For I have succumbed to the control of my inner most thoughts. I am prepared to sink with the ship, And extinguish the fire that fills my lungs, For this self-inflicted act of self-definition, Is an act that serves no consequence, Because within the confine of mortal life, I am unable to feel, Bring me your love, For I wish to sleep in warmth again. Hold me close, You're all I know, Fulfill my heart, Fulfill my bones. Hold me close, And don't let go. I've found my place of serenity. I have learned to become the subsequent, I have rid the constraints of my demons. I don't know who I am anymore.
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I know that I am just an afterthought. I am tired of beating myself up, because what I do is not enough. For you, this is all for you, I want to be a better man but there is noone to look to. I have been doing everything, all for you. We share a name, but I am not like you. You don't need me but, God how I needed you. I am sick of being the burden, even though I know it's not my fault. I'll be the man, that you never chose to be. I know that I am just an afterthought Don't let me waste your time We share a name, but I am not like you. You don't need me but, God how I needed you.
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I’m losing my grip on sanities’ reins So I despondently drift away, I couldn't care less Slowing each breath gets harder to breathe Fighting anxieties’ grasp To late I guess we’ll see the best of me I hear the sounds of my salvation calling but it only fades away A lonely being I'm getting questions never answers pushed and pushed until I brake What will it take? I'm done with this place never wanted to be here anyway These passing faces glancing gazes are nightmares to my sleep I know your just trying to save me sorry but I'm better off alone I'm not myself here I'm just dying somebody send me home Somebody send me home! Passing the time, defining clarity just losing my mind and begging just to be left alone So as it stands, the walls are closing as the anger expands So keep pushing on to let the monster be free and I guess we'll see the worst of me! I despise this world and never asked to be here so back the fuck off just leave me be Please just give me space to breath I need the headspace but your fucking crowding me I hear the sounds of my salvation calling but it only fades away A lonely being I'm getting questions never answers pushed and pushed until we brake What will it take? I'm done with this place never wanted to be here anyway These passing faces glancing gazes are nightmares to my sleep I know your just trying to save me sorry but I'm better off alone I'm not myself here I'm just dying somebody send me home Just send me home!
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I am a captive held inside this skull. I would let you in but my head is just too full Of thoughts and fears that I'm not willing to face. And it seems that I'm stuck in my head again. Distance is the sea. Self-perceptions, the clouds above me. If I'm floating facedown, it's not where I wanted to be. Deadweight in confusion drifting further away. And I'm beginning to think that I care too much. That this cycle of overthinking is what's killing me. I'm always overthinking everything. I will push you away. I wish you didn't have to leave, But i always knew that I couldn't stay. Still trying to forgive. Still trying to forget. But I don't want to love Because the burning flavor lingers on my tongue. Still tastes like regret. And I don't know how to let you in. Distance is the sea. Self-perceptions, the ball and chain. If I'm floating facedown, it's not where I wanted to be. Deadweight in confusion drifting further away. Those not so distant memories... They haunt me... The demons inside me... They don't let me sleep... "Let me be." (I lay awake in my bed) "Won't you just let me be." The demons inside me... They don't let me sleep. I always do this to myself. I'll be the fire, destroy everything good in my life. I will always run away. I don't believe that I deserve this love anymore. My heart is broken and I'm starting to think. My mind is an ocean and I'm starting to sink.​
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(intro) The weight of the world on my shoulders I heal my heart This is my explanation I wanna stay alive Never again with the ghosts of my past they're my enemies I heal my heart The past is dead and gone I'll hush my heart tonight Redeem me from the ashes I'll make it home I'll make it home Redeem me from the ashes (verse) Our words are broken Spiraling downwards Leave this path to self-destruction For there is a lasting future My words are broken Run, why don't we run Resist this suffering Is this how we face reality It's like a nightmare While I'm wide awake Refusing to stand down With gritted teeth Refusing to stand down With gritted teeth we brace ourselves (chorus) The weight of the world on my shoulders I heal my heart This is my explanation I wanna stay alive Never again with the ghosts of my past they're my enemies I heal my heart The past is dead and gone I'll hush my heart tonight (verse) We all have difficulty breathing Suffocating in my burdens Judged as liars, bounded by our deeds Eyes like daggers These lips whisper devastation Run, why don't we run? Resist this suffering Is this how we face reality It's like a nightmare While I'm wide awake Run, why don't we run? Resist this suffering Refusing to stand down With gritted teeth we brace ourselves For heaven's sake, Pray for our hearts Believing in a new hope And a new home (chorus) The weight of the world on my shoulders I heal my heart This is my explanation I wanna stay alive Never again with the ghosts of my past they're my enemies I heal my heart The past is dead and gone I'll hush my heart tonight Redeem me from the ashes I'll make it home I'll make it home I'll make it home I'll make it home With these weak hands, My weakened stance I'll take my throne I'll take my throne I'll take my throne I'll take my throne Redeem me from the ashes I'll make it home (Outro) Run, why don't you run? Resist this suffering, Refusing to stand down We're saved by grace
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You turned the world cold, you opened up this black hole in my fucking CHEST This emptiness I wish you could feel it. So you could know how I feel, every fucking day. Paranoia and loneliness build as my chest starts to cave. I begin to question all that I am am I worth anything? then you changed like the wind, you became everything you said you hated. (Ego trip) You aren't the person I once knew, your puny fucking brain couldnt grasp what you've put me through. I've built the thickest fucking walls, stay away from me. dissapointment You make me fucking sick. every night I lay awake, you sleep, wrapped in your ego filled blanket. you fucking shallow, piece of shit. And all you care for is yourself, stuck up, you're the love of your own life. it's made my hate for you burn brighter than what my love once did I'd rather kill myself than look you in the eye ever again, I won't extend a hand, not until hell freezes over, you'll dig your own grave, and lie in it, six feet under but I don't hope you die I just hope you suffer through a long and lonely life. fucking suffer motherfucker I'm moving on.
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Worn out of chasing feelings that will never be mutual
 My mind is filled with rage 
However I am not a monster
 Just a man lost in the wrong age Why did they save me when I first saw light?
 Why did they let me take my first breath? When I have tried to die Our oldest memories rise up from childhood But never before the age of five 
What happened during those early days?
 From our very first steps To reaching awareness 
Our first memories are from a distant past But never before five Possibly we all knew it was a losing battle Before even seeing light
 I started making my own choices
 Carved my own path
 Despite the overwhelming tide of responsibilities Why do we even care about these decisions we come to make?
 I will not be standing on my feet forever Feelings will never be true to one another
 You’ll never know the day you’ll fail
 Becoming a shadow who was never meant to love or to be loved “Stay gold” was my way of life
 In spite of ordeals, obsessions and hangups
 But I despise these souvenirs that will forever hold me back Who said what I am or should be for the first time? Our oldest memories rise up from childhood But never before the age of five
 What happened during those early days? 
From our very first steps to reaching awareness
 Our first memories are from a distant past But never before five I’ll handle myself alone
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Somewhere far below, A sadness deep inside, A voice inside my head, Telling me to let go Standing in the rain, Buried in the ground, I watch myself, Cry These black gloves, Cover my scars, But they won't stop the bleeding, Of my heart, Of my heart Roses are red, Tears are blue, I am sad, And so are you Under this bridge, Water so clear, Splashes my face, Consumes me These black gloves, Cover our scars, But they won't stop the bleeding, Of our hearts These black gloves, Cover our scars, But they won't stop the bleeding, Of our hearts Maybe I, Wanna know, What it's like, On the other side, If I try, Hold my hand, Slip away, With me
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Unleash my wrath My will to live is dead Rotted out, I feel death reside Corrupted by this disease that unhinges my mind, I am extinction, I am hatred, I am fear reborn. In the silence I was awakened. We live in frailty The life we reside on weakens, Stop the spin on this Earth and drown out the sun. Shit spat from the demons mouth, Tell me what lies do you offer to sell, If there is a life after death, Then my bidding will be due in hell. What has this world to offer, When we die alone? Defiled by the presence that claims my soul. I felt that hatred as it crept inside, Crawling up my spine and behind my eyes. Violent visions consume my mind, If curiosity kills, Why can't it kill me? Burn me from the Earth Tear out my soul. I cannot be saved No where to escape, When the evil lives in me. Unhinged by devils bidding, A man and his mind part, My being, captured and tortured until torn apart. Why must I endure this hatred that claims immortality, The light before my eyes retracts. Let me claim my death and end insanity. Too weak to tie the rope, Withered in my descent, No one to pity me, I've seen the end of days, I am the end of days. I will be born again, The craftsmanship of the burning abyss, I'll suffer a thousand screams, Oh god, why'd it have to be me? When will it end. I am not alive, I'm dead on the inside. Drag me to the depths, I want to be with death. I am not alive, I'm dead on the inside
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In the middle of a crowd I stare at the desperation in your eyes Emptiness surrounding False hope and repressed issues I contemplate the boredome infected your will to live Absorbing substances to change your ways Get fucked to valorise yourself Self confidence doesn't grow between your legs You ignorant harlot Get on your knees and beg for it I'll fucking shove the truth down your fucking throat Like daddy use to do I will degrade your sorry ass And you will pretend you fucking love it like you always do Strip down you whore dont dry your tears and get on your fucking knees Beg for more and remember you've been warned about guys like me I will fucking degrade your sorry ass Drown you into your punishment I will put you through shame And you will probably text me back I will fucking degrade your sorry ass Drown you into your punishment I will put you through shame
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I feel so sick. I see another silhouette. They know my name. I just wish they'd go away. But they wait. Why will they wait? Time is nothing but a perception. We die, we move on, it's just how we left it. Life is in death, we learn to accept it. Go now, you can finally forget me. I can feel your presence in the room. I know you know I'm all alone. Stop hiding show your face to me. Just take me. Just take me now. (Just take me now, I don't belong here anymore) I'm talking with the shadows now. They saw they have it figured out. What's the point in losing sleep? Just close your eyes and you'll find peace. This is the end.
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This is the cage I'm trapped in Scratching for light to find the tunnel Nothing can satiate this hunger Condemned to a prison I'm forced to rot in With no crime committed I am rotting But for everything I want will I sacrifice the whole To find the purpose? To find the entrance? It is a curse It is an omen It is a prison It is condemnation I won't be condemned I will sacrifice it all I will watch these walls burn Nothing can stop me I'll have everything Feel nothing Fear nothing Control See it Know it Feel it Fear this You are all condemned
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In pursuit of collaborating plots. To established utmost treachery. Unnoticed, you twist your knife in my back. And you bury me. All I feel is a pull of your lust. All I smell is the stench of your lies. Of who you really are. Who the fuck do you think you are. Now I know what you're capable of. Your tactics won't deceived me. I yearn to see you swallow your own tongue. For what it's worth. You. Your presence disgust me. We are better off this way. Look at what you've done. What you've done. Your petty confession are just a little to late. Your brotherhood is not my kind of thing. All I hear is the pulse of my sins. All I taste is the blood on my hands. How can I be so blind. Who the fuck do you think you are. Look at what you've done. Mark my words, whatever our ends may be. I'm through for seacrhing the answer. I want you to burn. Fiend. This is not the end. You will see my face once again. In hell
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It's time to let go, and move on from this. Broken records of the same shit that you play. It's amazing to see just how far you'll go. Just to see how I'll react. Just to see how I'll react. You'll always get the best of me. You'll always get the best of me. Just leave me be. No sympathy needed for this lost soul. I'm better off alone. And don't tell me I'll be fine. (Bens part) Your face refuses to leave my conscious. You wear a mask to hide the lies that lie within your being (Your being) despiteful mindsets, broken promises. When will this end? When will this fucking end? Just let this fucking end. Oh my god here we go again. Love doesn't belong in your mouth. And don't test my patients with your so called innocence. I'm no longer your safe place to rest your heavy head. This dead weight is taking me back to this empty grave. But If I guess I'm going I'm taking you with me. I'm taking you with me.
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What will everyone do when you're dead and gone? Nothing. What will everyone say when you're dead and gone? Nothing. Everyone in this world comes to a point in their life when they have to choose between wrong and right. The difference between you and I is I'm never right and you always lie. Mistakes can leave scars but it's up to us if we let them define who we are. It's never been so god damn hard to right these wrongs I've made but with every passing second I'll prove you wrong. Death is a part of life everyone is gonna have to die. When will you stop letting words define who you are? You'll have to learn when to use your mouth and when to shut it.

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