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Rememberance

by MxHC Music Promotions

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1.
My lungs they no longer draw breath. The stench of aeons past, my very flesh corrupted. I, the embodiment of decay. Forever changing, stagnant no longer. This temple, this organic structure, shadowed beneath swarms of flies. How eager do their wings seek my carry. A lord amongst atrophy am I. The seed of undoing germinates within me, seizing my nervous system in so disgusting a manner. How sickeningly do I hunger. Morals corrupted through appetance. This perversion, this desire, I shall no longer refuse. How unnerving my silence, but even in silence have you trembled. How loathsome that which enshrouds me. Oh, my beauty, the mirth of my desire. How lecherous that within me grows, I beseech your forgiveness. Oh, Death, eternal requiem, how your decaying hands shall stay my feet no more. My head anointed in disgust, it irrigates these veins. With a hunger so profound, that not even my love for another could prevent me from appeasing. My mind, my very thoughts, have become this sickness embodied. I won't stop until the screaming does.
2.
Countless years of pain and bad luck that's why my father taught me not to give a fuck. Life is short so don't let no one walk me, respect is earned and trust isn't fucking free. Over years I learned from my mistakes, took my knowledge and weeded out the fakes, disconnected anyone from my life that wasn't there to help pick me up when I was down. STAY HATED! There's no such thing as respect in this world, everyone changes to fit the fucking mold. This world is a fucking grave yard for morals and integrity. Good intentions get buried six feet deep. Broken lives and broken necks, this world forgives but it don't forget. Fuck your grey skies and your clouded minds. Stay hated til the day I die! STAY HATED!
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Feeling fragile I don't want to be here I bet you wish that the end is near You knocked me down but I'm right back up You hoped I cared but I don't give a fuck I looked you right in the eye Gave you that stare I feel stuck in my mind Mentally vexed but I say I'm fine Fuck your thoughts and what you believe in Put the gun to your head I hope you're not breathing You caught me just as I was leaving This chain is locking me down I'm stuck for now but I’ll break out the fucking ground I'm Stronger than you thought Do what I want on my own accord I don't need to do what you say Fuck these games you play You try to mess with my head And keep my thoughts locked down You think you've got me all covered That's not true I know for a fact I'm stronger than you I’ll break down these chains and smash right through This fragile feeling doesn't belong I’ll be free
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The realisation that I still don't know what I'm doing here, Put in perspective I am nothing, It feels like something has been wasted, and I am fading Time is growing against me as I grow tired of being Just another soul spent searching for something inside, I hate my fucking guts, I hate desire, I hate lust, I hate humanity, I hate instinctively, I hate this fucking world for fucking hating me The chasm in my chest Screams of resounding emptiness I've never tasted this bitterness I never felt this solitude, worthlessness So what great vision is this to sail amongst the vast indifference? Accept a trail to hollow senses, where only tragedy breaks the numbness So what great epiphany, will spell out beneath my feet? Chain my wrists, and admit defeat, imprisoned by 'the clarity' So is this destiny, a doubtful life, feeling empty? Worst of all to make me guilty, blindest of the blind, telling me to see I might hate this world, I might hate myself But I wont be a wasted soul, another ghost like everyone else
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I hear these demons calling my name. I’m addicted to this sin. Take me, this is all I have left. This is the part where we are all condemned for the choices that we’ve made. An eternity of sin, I am living in. We are all condemned. I hear them calling my name. My vices are holding me. They are my weakness. Everything that we believed is dead. Dead, I’m dead; we’re all abandoning hope. Dead, I’m dead; no-one will save you. This is sin. Screaming my name, it’s fucking deafening. Cast a shadow over the horizon, the last day we waste this life. I’m as cold as this breeze has become. My limbs are numb, my limbs are numb. Take me away, take me away. Hear me. Dead, I’m dead; we’re all abandoning hope. Dead I’m dead; no-one will save you. This is sin. Screaming my name, it’s fucking deafening. Repenting, repenting. Into the mouth of the demon existing, this is not living. We are killing everything, everything. Existence is redefined, our bleak outlook can only break the will of man. Deconstructed, reassembled, functioning subordinates on command.
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Old man, I heard some things about the boy you used to be. No father, no king, just a broken old man broken by the whiskey. Too afraid to stay, too smart to not leave, too young to be a bird who forgot to sing, and a ground that never knew the knees of a boy and his own tale of two cities. "Sometimes a man breaks, sometimes he can't bend when his youth is a wound time won't mend. (never the best of times) Sometimes a man breaks, sometimes he can't bend at the thought of peace as something only lent. (only the worst of mine) Sometimes a man breaks, sometimes he can't bend when his son is another one who won't understand": The Irish temper, it's history's chains, and the bottle's stain that just won't wash away. But a seed was planted in the sod of nothingness from which you came, and flowers grew and roses bloomed to form this garden of a life you've made. And in this city you once knew as hell is a garden where I enjoy myself. And in this father I hardly know was a son who took back what the bottle stole So I could be the boy you couldn't be have the father you didn't get to see have the youth you did not get to live or feel the love this world forgot to give. And for this gift I don't deserve to get I'll make damn sure I earn this. "o' your friends say boston's beautiful, but they didn't live here, they didn't die here in the Hyde Park years. o' your friends say boston's beautiful, but they didn't live hard, they didn't die hard when sons dragged out their fathers from bars. o' your friends say boston's beautiful, but they didn't dream here, they didn't scream here when no one hears. o' your friends say boston's beautiful, but they didn't hide here, they didn't cry here when little boys weren't allowed to shed their tears." There just aren't enough men like you.
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You've lost the light, that I thought I had found. Given up on the flight and settled to remain here on the ground. Force comfort and rest. Adjust to unpleasantness. You gave up on what you had. You know that your greatest compromise weighs heavy in your eyes. I can see that it's something you cannot hide. You fenced yourself in with these white posts, Given up on what you needed the most. He clipped your wings, you no longer sing. You allowed the worm to make you it's host. A cage is a cage even when their are no bars, and if you keep your head down then there's no way you'll see the stars. You've let him become the weights that keep you tethered to the floor. You know that your greatest compromise weighs heavy in your eyes. I can see that it's something you cannot hide. You fenced yourself in with these white posts, Given up on what you needed the most. He clipped your wings, you no longer sing. You allowed the worm to make you it's host. A cage is a cage even when their are no bars, and if you keep your head down then there's no way you'll see the stars. A house can't make you whole, and the bottle won't return what he stole. Sleeves to cover wrists, bruised from heavy fists. You can't say you're complete when what you're missing still exists. There's hardly a shadow of who you once were. What have you become? Lost and alone! But you live for the crash. You ache for the flames, the pity it brings. What have you become?
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Forever I walk this darkened, wretched path, to create my own false reality, Consider me gone, banished from society no more than four years ago, and I regret nothing. For they are the brainwashed succumbed to be self loathing slaves, they're ignorant to ideals I speak of, I teach of, I preach of, I live by, an eternity of torment could never entice me to trade. The years I've forsaken them, a miserable, inhuman race I refuse to be like one of them, like one of you, the comatose, the mass produced, the lost souls marching in unison to their graves. Fuck the idea of fate, its pathetic, I'll create my own destiny, I'll never stop until I achieve global domination. A lost creation Resurrect the reaper, clear these fucking clones, bare witness to the bloodshed brewing in my bones, I'll mutilate machines, slit their fucking throats, society is doomed Eradicate entity, send them all to hell, feel the fucking force that you have let prevail, I am now your prophet, I am now your god I will ensure the downfall of the world, Speak these words unspoken, Such an ugly reality, this existence is false I hold the key to salvation, To reality, a lost creation This false existence crushing down on me I hold the key to salvation I speak these words, unspoken A lost creation, ensuring the downfall of the world. A lost creation, speak these words unspoken, a lost creation, I will ensure the downfall of the world
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We are survivalists but were all still going to die We are survivalists They can kill us but not our pride Nobody is immortal Everyone will surely die So don't get too attached to anyone For when they let you down, you will still have me inside (You're) my pride Pent up thoughts that I am now releasing My worries have finally become more than skin deep So many have not survived Will you be the lucky one? Finish him Go on and try to defeat us You can not win this battle What will be living like without you by my side? We will all stand strong and defend you Just stay firm and don't let this defeat you We are survivalists and none of us are getting left behind I thought I was there but I still need your words of wisdom I thought I was there but I still need you need by my side Survivalists, we all stand strong
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And I heard you noticed every day while I've been here beside myself How your bedroom smells just like me and how you found somebody else But there's a letter that I wrote you just on the back of your top shelf In case you think the things I've told you, you will hear from someone else It talks about the things I feel when it's just us inside the dark About the things I like to think while you lay so close to my heart And I can't seem to find the words I mean so I try to hold my tongue While I lay wide awake and restless you should read it says, Go to hell if you're reading this and I'm not here Take your someone else and let me make this crystal clear that, That I don't need your help and I'm okay by myself You can go to hell And they say you tell him every day how you can feel the way I feel How we're connected by the heart and you're convinced it's something real Well, if that's true I hope you're smiling like I am from ear to ear And just in case you think I'm lying I've left a page to make it clear That now I open up and scream to the whole world that I finally left So if you hear me out of breath I'm singing Go to hell if you're reading this and I'm not here Take your someone else and let me make this crystal clear that, That I don't need your help and I'm okay by myself You can go to hell And I feel it's time that I have said There are some things that I regret Like never checking out the odds against this bet 'Cause I would bet my favorite things I ever owned That you would leave and I'd be missing you like hell But I won't Go to hell if you're reading this and I'm not here Take take your somebody else and let me make this crystal clear that, That I don't need your help and I'm okay by myself You can go to hell Yeah, you can, yeah you can you can Go to hell if you're reading this and I'm not here Take your somebody else and let me make this crystal clear that, That I don't need your help and I'm okay by myself You can go to hell Oh, you can go to hell You make sure you take someone else Oh, that you know you can, you can go to hell
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I don't give a fuck about a thing they say. They act so concerned when they only know my fucking name. They analyze my shit like it means something to them, but they don't know a thing about how I've lived or where I've been. All my life people acted like they knew, but I've come to learn that they don't have a fucking clue. They wasted my time and couldn't look me in the eyes. They were afraid of my truth so the fed me fucking lies. They pretend, but they don't care. They want to talk, but no one listens. "I understand." No you don't. So many lies, I'm sick and tired. I'm tired. Now they try and act like they know what I'm about. They tell me that I need to talk, that I got to let it out. They say, "Walter, your're so angry. You've got to let things go." Well fuck them, and fuck you. Hate is all I've ever known. So, fuck every friend that felt obliged to listen but didn't give a shit. Fuck my teachers for wasting my time and said I was acting out. Fuck the social worker that got paid to feel sorry for me. Fuck the church for filling my head with useless stories that never helped. Fuck the cops for showing up late. Fuck my parents for making me pay for their mistakes.
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I am strong I will live forever But not like this Forfeit the plan we had in mind I'm on the road to be a better man A thought to salvage Just down the street (These places keep getting older) (Keep getting older) But we ain't getting younger (They keep getting older) (These places keep getting older) (Keep getting older) (They keep getting older) With these hands I carved our paths I prayed for mercy I am strong I'm gonna live I'm gonna live forever I'm gonna live I'm gonna live forever Forever Cause we could sink like quick sand (Or fly like fire flies) Down this path Are worlds where love can rest and prosper There fucking better be Tell your friends I never meant for it to be like this Please trust me now Please trust me now Please trust me Please trust me now (Please tell your friends it was never meant to be like this) Cause I bled I bled, I bled Cause I bled for you I fuckin bled for you (Never meant to be like this, it was never meant to be) Cause I bled I bled Cause I bled for you Cause I bled for So don't you dare say you don't care Say you don't care Don't you dare say you don't care Say you don't care (Never meant to be like this) Don't you dare say you don't care Say you don't care So don't you dare say you don't Cause I did this for you I did this for us Cause in this life You only get one chance You only get once chance This is my last chance This is for my friends This is for my family This is for my friends This is for my family This is who I am And I will always be the same This is for my friends This is for my family Yeah
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Spit in the face of everything that you tried to tell me and to stand for what they believe. And I know there comes a time where we need to justify if matter is more valuable than life itself. Where do we draw the line? We’re starved to feed the riches. Look what we’ve left for the young. Where do we draw the line? Disgrace is no commodity. What is left for the young? We can’t flee, we can’t run away. They will return, we have to stay. I will stand and fight for you, this is your life. We are strong in numbers. This is not goodbye. You hold your life in the palm of your own hand. We are strong in numbers, and I refuse to swallow lies or live my life on my knees. I will not fit a mold, I will reject all that I’m told. Life in my hands and I’m not letting go for anything short of death. Where do we draw the line? We’re starved to feed the riches. Look what we’ve left for the young. Where do we draw the line? Disgrace is no commodity. What is left for the young? We are strong in numbers. This is not goodbye. You hold your life in the palm of your own hand. Spit in their face. And I know there comes a time where we need to justify if matter is more valuable than life itself.
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Seek out No forward-thinking, working class released A generation that's infected by the same disease On a fast track, you're seeking fame Narcissistic traits have never really looked so vain The present's lasting, the future's aged Blue collars are now sold in many shades A dreamers culture, on the pay roll It's little wonder that the world can't sleep at all Can't sleep at all No chance to close your eyes when you're inches from demise (oh) Ignorance is bliss when reality is redefined Blissful ignorance when reality is redefined It's redefined, seek out A crashing market, tumbling on the enslaved But fantasies are the currency that you trade A vision's value ain't what it seems, but still we wander up and down these streets Seek out, seek out, the shimmer lost in the grey Lost in the grey No chance to close your eyes when you're inches from demise (oh) Ignorance is bliss when reality is redefined Blissful ignorance when reality is redefined It's redefined Seek out, seek out, the shimmer lost in the grey Lost in the grey Why don't you find it A shimmer that's lost, lost in the grey Seek out, seek out, the shimmer lost in the grey Ignorance is bliss when reality is redefined Blissful ignorance when reality is redefined It's redefined
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How am I supposed to sleep when I can't even find peace in my dreams? I'm never safe from my mind racing. Don't tell me that this didn't mean everything. Your words are all I have to hold on to. Some days I wish I could just go back to the person I thought I knew. (Be)cause I've let go of what I need the most I always wanted to be what you had wanted from me and all I hope is you forget this. I know I've made so many mistakes, but I can't make you stay so I'll go. Just count me out (be)cause I can't bare anymore. I'm far too fragile to be keeping score. I'm told the truth will set you free, but all of this could almost kill me. I tried to ignore the writing on the wall. I wish I was wrong. Deep down I know you're not sleeping alone. Just go away. I'm not gonna play these fucking games. Just go away. I'm not gonna play these fucking games. I spent all my days here waiting for you. I always gave us a shot, you never saw us through. Just give me a second to look in your eyes so I can come to grips that this was all a lie. How could I say goodbye? It's not like I think about you constantly. You always leave with the best of me. (Be)cause I've let go of what I need the most I always wanted to be what you had wanted from me and all I hope is you forget this. I know I've made so many mistakes, but I can't make you stay so I'll go. So you can act like this won't mean a thing, but we both know you will never forget me. (Be)cause I've let go.
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For the first time in my life, I see you now for what you truly are. You're nothing more than a passing trend, And nothings ever gonna be the same again. Take a look at yourself! You're a hipocrite. Take a look at yourself! And the lie that you've lived. I dont want to hear this anymore, Are you looking for war? So stop trying to convince me, That this was all for me! ALL FOR ME! You took the best of me, You took my everything, Well just look who's laughing now! With my own eyes to see, My own air to breathe, You're no longer apart of me! I've rebuilt myself out of the ashes! I've rebuilt myself out of those bridges you've burned! So the past in the past, We can look to the now. And live a life we've always dreamed about. Moving forward, was the only option. What choices did we have? But to break away from this mess. You took the best of me, You took my everything, Well just look who's laughing now! With my own eyes to see, My own air to breathe, You're no longer apart of me! Is this what you thought it would be? For me to crawl on my fucking knees! I hope you're happy with the grave you've dug. Cause i wont be happy til you're. SIX FEET UNDER GROUND!
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Maybe life won't be the way That I planned it out to be but if I try, I just might make it I'm just making sure that I Don't trip over my own feet And keep my eyes in front of me So I can see where I am going Is this real? Am I just killing time Travelling on a road that leads to nowhere Today's the day, I wont give up the fight Instead I'm gonna prove I've got what it takes Keep in mind it's not your place To judge the life I choose And tell me I'm not where I need to be I'm just doing things the best that I know how And making my way down the path I've made I never said that it'd be easy Is this real? Am I just killing time Travelling on a road that leads to nowhere Today's the day, I wont give up the fight Instead I'm gonna prove I've got what it takes I've made my mistakes, but I won't turn back now My friends have my back, and we will stand our ground I've made my mistakes, but I won't turn back now My friends have my back, and we will stand our ground I'm tired of pretending to be happy when I'm not I'm sick of acting impressed when everything that you can do I can do, just as well in my own life And yes this song's about you I'm tired of pretending to be happy when I'm not I'm sick of acting impressed when everything that you can do I can do, just as well in my whole life And yes this song's about you
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You're the latest fashion that everyone wants to wear, But in the end, (but in the end) you're the label that no one can, seem to get off, Stabbing me in the back, (stabbing me in the back) And, these watercolours, that I painted our perfect life with, will run, (will run) (run) Once my tears hit the paper, once the ducts are open, once the ducts are open, We flood our hearts, You think it's fine to do things your way, but this lump in my throat, it's getting bigger and bigger, from swallowing my words, Hope I don't choke, on the truth, (Ian Fike of It Prevails) You've found a way to fall apart, You've found a way to change and disappear, with no help from me, My tears have been the catalyst to the process of you fading away, You've become a ghost, And It turns out, you are, as fucking selfish, as I thought, And, these watercolours, that I painted our perfect life with, will run, (will run) (YEAHHHHHHHHH) Once my tears hit the paper, once the ducts are open, once the ducts are open, We'll flood our hearts, And we'll flood our hearts, Now you're gone, As my eyes grow heavy, WE FLOOD OUR HEARTS My tears speak of regret, WE FLOOD OUR HEARTS We fall, WE FLOOD OUR HEARTS Now you're gone,
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No matter what you've done In this life You're worth while And if you don't believe in anything Believe in us I'm one of the heroes Last name or age I can't call it I'm already dead to everyone I knew The cynic the saviour The prison surrounds as a perfect guarantee Wear curses like roses Damn yourself to a freedom If you don't believe in anything Believe in us Psychotic with convictions The zealot proclaims Our words are dead 'Til they're given life With our blood "If I've gained anything By damning myself I have nothing to fear" I didn't even see any breath in him

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